Album 1.0

I'm working on an album.

There, I've said it. Out loud, on the internet. Now people will ask me about it and at some point I will have to finish it.

I've written (loosely) about 10 or 11 songs. They're all kind of rough sketches and several of them flat out suck. Some have potential. Who am I to judge? All I have to do is program some background tracks, sing them, mix them down and we're done. Simple. Not really. I forgot all the neurosis that goes on in between. They don't all quite have words. Some have words that I hate. A couple have basslines and drum tracks. They all have chord changes and melodies.

At the moment, I cannot seem to make myself sit down and work on it at all. I really want to, I think, and I think about it a lot. But there's a disconnection between my intention and the reality of putting my fingers on the buttons. I don't know if it's fear of failure or laziness or both. Probably both and more, but really I should just get over it. I've written songs before that people liked. This album has the potential to be the best thing I've ever done.

Then again, it also has the potential to be really mediocre, even if I work as hard on it as I can work. I think that's what stops me. I don't know if the work I put in will be worth the outcome.